fun times

doing a little better today.

we've been having a fun spring break. we have spent the week on the go.

monday- went to the park and also roller skating

tuesday- went to the dallas zoo....with every other person in north texas. seriously.

wednesday- took the kids to see the lorax

thursday- pump it up playtime, and chick fil a for lunch (plus baseball practice....)

friday-a super fun oil change (haha) and then shopping with nana for a little while....hoping to talk the kids into staying over with nana....that will make saturday morning simpler!

:) i will post about saturday, on saturday! see ya then

let me count the ways....

today has been rough. i'm not really sure why.

you would think that after two years of doing this on my own, i'd be over it all by now. and alot of the time i am.

until i'm not.

and then it comes crashing down, and its so so hard.

its hard because i didn't want any of this.

its hard because i get so tired.

its hard because at times, i feel like such a failure, and i know that however all this turns out, the way my little monsters turn out, its to my credit (or fault)....today its feels like my fault

its hard because i don't want to feel so jealous of my happily married friends. i don't want to feel jealous of their relationships, support, partnership, companionship, and sadly, sometimes what they have (or their kids) have the opportunity to do......

its hard because after two years, people get tired of listening to you whine

its hard because i still don't understand

its hard because i don't want to be a single mom of three kids, and i just want to stamp my feet and scream "its not fair. somebody, make this right!"

isn't that just awful?

maybe tomorrow will be better and i will take my pity-party post down.

spring break!!!!

alright....beer, beaches, beer, the river, beer, camping, beer....

oh wait, no, i'm a grown up.

nevermind

don't get me wrong, i still look forward to spring break, but its not what it was BCC (before children of the corn). now its the zoo, skating rinks, home improvement, and experimenting with new recipes. life just changes so much. i'll keep you posted as to the new things we try, include a link if its a hit, and maybe some pics of our fun.

so what is everyone up to over spring break? leave me a comment...especially if you have any great (cheap) ideas!

am i the only one already planning summer adventures? it seems every year i start our summer list earlier and earlier. i don't know if its just to help me daydream through the last ten weeks of school (oh, yea, i am already counting down...) or because i really am that uptight. possibly a little of column a, a little of column b.....

hello?

is there anybody in there?

just nod if you can hear me.

is there any one home?

pink floyd. hee, hee

ok, so i haven't posted in a while. and yes, my life is busy. most of the time i feel like i am mopping up a tsunami with a q-tip. but that will be another post. anyways, i got all worried that i had inadvertently put too much out there about the children of the corn. so i went back and edited all 86 posts (in one sitting, in a hard chair, and my @$$ may never wake up) and gave my kids nicknames. it won't detract from the writing. (hahaha) my oldest girl is called little mama now. it fits. my son is simply the boy. and my youngest daughter....well, many, many, many nicknames popped into my head. but they also probably would be brought up later "in session" so i avoided those, even though they are quite accurate. and landed on calling my littlest sweetpea. cause most of the time she is. plus, its easier to understand than "honeybadger" which may be funny now (and also more apropos) but will not involve me using old you tube videos to explain to sweetpea when she's older.i also almost went with calling sweetpea "the third" but doubted that many of my cool friends would get my nerdy sci-fi reference there. and collectively, i will call them the children of the corn. plus, i changed our family and friends names to initials for the most part. i also plan to change the name of the blog...maybe.....if i can think of something.

so as i was editing the posts....i was also reading. i used to be fairly entertaining. ok, maybe not like, kimmel or conan funny....but at least relevant and somewhat witty. and then the children of the corn took over my blog like they did my life!!!

so i am going to try to post more often, and i am going to be trying to mix it up. ideas from other blogs. lists. random thoughts or things i noticed, and wanted to talk about with an adult (or grown up...or older than 10...audience). current events. recipes. things i nailed (or failed) from pinterest. maybe some school stuff.

but of course, the children of the corn will make regular appearances. how can they not take up a bunch of space on my blog, when they take up so much space in my heart ? (and take up so much time...and money....and patience....and sleep....haha)